Wednesday, April 27, 2022

The Traveler Takes a Dive

 

 

"Kill the headlights and put it in neutral
Stock car flamin' with a loser and the cruise control
Baby's in Reno with the vitamin D
Got a couple of couches sleep on the love seat
Someone keeps sayin I'm insane to complain
About a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
Don't believe everything that you breathe
You get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
So shave your face with some mace in the dark
Savin' all your food stamps and burnin' down the trailer park
 
(Yo, cut it.)
 
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?"

- Lyrics from I'm a Loser (Soy un perdedor) - 1993, Beck, Carl Stephenson.


"Forces of evil in a bozo nightmare"


I haven't listened to this song by Beck in a long time. And, then, about 2 days ago - like a bolt from the blue - it started running through my head non-stop.

So, as these (spontaneously emerging) tunes are generally the kinds of tunes I tend to post, I put it up. But, first, I listened to it on YouTube because I did wonder about it. Usually, an unconsciously inspired tune relates to some aspect of my life I haven't really expressed as of late... and, as is also usual with these tunes, they don't stop running through my head until I pin them down and decipher the message.

"Loser" was always an ironic video (and it has a good back-beat), but, now, in 2022, I detected a darker aspect I hadn't really noticed in 1994. Oddly enough, the first thing I surmised was that Beck had once been homeless. My second idea was that I was merely projecting.  But, as it turns out, I was right the first time. According to Wiki, he had become homeless just before he wrote the song, "Loser."

"(In 1989...) daunted by the prospect of another homeless New York winter, Beck returned to his home of Los Angeles in early 1991. 'I was tired of being cold, tired of getting beat up,' he later remarked. 'It was hard to be in New York with no money, no place... I kinda used up all the friends I had. Everyone on the scene got sick of me.'

...By 1993, Beck was living in a rat-infested shed near a Los Angeles alleyway with little money. Bong Load issued 'Loser' as a single in March 1993 on 12" vinyl with only 500 copies pressed. Beck felt that 'Loser' was mediocre, and only agreed to its release at Rothrock's insistence."


Of course, this may just be something out of a press kit, but I think it's quite possibly true. I think I recognized this song and, for a homeless person, it's actually a very powerful song. In fact, I would say it's a Traveler's song... conveying the sort of attitude that, perhaps, the  world's refugees should share: if you imagine I am a lesser person because of my present fate,  then, wake up. Bad luck is like a car crash... a flood... a tornado... or being struck by lightening; you're in the wrong place at the wrong time; there's no reasoning with it and it's impersonal. Or, as my friend, Moo, once planned to use as her epitaph: "But, whatever was good... didn't happen."

And, it's not happening to a lot of people these days. Including me.

Welcome to the New Mexican Lottery...

Sunday, April 17, 2022

The Golden Egg

Original photo found here - Geometry: 2022, DS.

If any day is for celebrating eggs, it'd have to be Easter. But, when you think about it, one of the first fundamental shapes we learn to recognize in childhood is that of an egg, and, when we do the math, the shape of an egg - that quintessential oval - is golden! 

Some eggs are shaped more perfectly golden than others, but, it's probably safe to say that Phi - via the golden triangle - comes to us at the beginning of our lives in the most simple and primitive form we can imagine... and we never have to think about it.

It's also a beautiful marriage of symbols... the egg represents life itself... the spiral represents eternity... and Phi? Phi is a measure of perfection.

Have a great holiday!

 Afterword

"The 'goose that lays the golden eggs' is a reference to a tale told in an Aesop fable. Aesop was a slave and a storyteller who lived in ancient Greece. He is famous for creating tales that illustrate timeless truths. These short stories remind us of simple lessons that everyone should know about life. For instance, in the story The Goose that Laid the Golden Eggs, a farmer comes into possession of a goose that literally lays one golden egg, everyday. Greed overcomes the farmer, and he becomes convinced that if he splits open the goose he will come upon an enormous sum of gold that he may have all at once, rather than waiting to receive a smaller amount of gold everyday in the form of golden eggs. He slaughters the goose and finds nothing inside except the usual entrails common to all geese. The moral of the story is: Those who have plenty want more and so lose all they have."

- An excerpt taken from this Grammarist page regarding a fable allegedly penned by the ancient Greek writer known only as Aesop (620–564 BC) - who may have been the first black author of the western world.  Inset right is a lovely little goose named Lucy who lives at the Secret Gardens of Helgian in Cornwall, England. You can read about her here (but don't be April-fooled; that egg is golden, and we have proof...)

 

Tuesday, April 5, 2022

Caravaggio's "Golden" Boy(s)


Amor Vincit Omnia - 1602, Caravaggio. Geometry: 2022, DS.

"Caravaggio employed close physical observation with a dramatic use of chiaroscuro that came to be known as tenebrism. He made the technique a dominant stylistic element, transfixing subjects in bright shafts of light and darkening shadows. Caravaggio vividly expressed crucial moments and scenes, often featuring violent struggles, torture, and death. He worked rapidly, with live models, preferring to forgo drawings and work directly onto the canvas. His inspiring effect on the new Baroque style that emerged from Mannerism was profound. His influence can be seen directly or indirectly in the work of Peter Paul Rubens, Jusepe de Ribera, Gian Lorenzo Bernini, and Rembrandt. Artists heavily under his influence were called the "Caravaggisti" (or "Caravagesques"), as well as tenebrists or tenebrosi ("shadowists")."

 "Caravaggio displayed bizarre behavior from very early in his career. Mancini describes him as 'extremely crazy', a letter of Del Monte notes his strangeness, and Minniti's 1724 biographer says that Mario left Caravaggio because of his behavior. The strangeness seems to have increased after Malta. Susinno's early-18th-century Le vite de' pittori Messinesi ("Lives of the Painters of Messina") provides several colourful anecdotes of Caravaggio's erratic behavior in Sicily, and these are reproduced in modern full-length biographies such as Langdon and Robb."

- Two separate quotes from Caravaggio's Wiki entries (linked to in the image caption above) from which all images in this post have been sourced. Inset right is Caravaggio's Narcissus at the Source, 1599... another "golden" boy, as we shall see... which begs the question: Did Caravaggio actually "forgo drawings and work directly into the canvas" or was that merely another element of the mythology which surrounded the tragic life of this artist?

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By most accounts, "tragedy" is not the operative word in Michelangelo da Caravaggio's life story. He was a swaggering, brawling, hot-tempered man, but he also happened to be the most celebrated artist of his time. His violent nature was, if not celebrated, accepted. After all, isn't knocking a few heads around - and other forms of assault - a manly thing to do? That his police record was as long as his right arm (or longer) and included several homicides shouldn't deter us; we love our dark heroes.

Inset left is a pastel portrait of Caravaggio (1621, Ottavio Leoni).

He was said to have created art in much the same way as he lived: spontaneously... as if he just splashed his paint on the canvas with nary a plan - nor a preliminary drawing - in mind; once again, a very manly, masterful approach. And, yet, he managed to create a number of exceptionally vibrant, cohesive images that dazzled the public of his time and continue to impress us to this day; by all accounts, his should have been a brilliant success story.

The downside is this: he spent the last years of his short life as a paranoid refugee... running scared, as a result of the murder and mayhem he had created previously. Karma caught up with him in the form of family members of one of his victims - I might add that his crime involved a "botched" castration (but, try not to dwell on this) - and, due to an infected wound he died at age 38.*

As if that wasn't bad enough, his sworn-enemy, worse critic and arch-rival - fellow artist, Giovanni Baglione - somehow - and, most likely, by nefarious means - became the author of Caravaggio's first official biography(!). Of this Wiki tells us: "Baglione, his first biographer, played a considerable part in creating the legend of Caravaggio's unstable and violent character, as well as his inability to draw."

So, keep this in mind (and make no mistake) when reading about Caravaggio: in some insidious way, Baglione's poison ink still flows...

...a matter I will attempt to circumvent.

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 * Other possible causes of death include lead poisoning and syphilis... but, then again, well, there was that Knight of Malta...! (See this Smithsonian article.)

 

 Love Conquers All 

I may as well tell you now that since the time I first posted Amor Vincit Omnia (Love Conquers All), and, presently, as I write these words, I made an important discovery. And, it is due to this discovery that I can state, without any hesitation, that the spiral in this painting was no accident.* That is, Caravaggio was well-informed of the pentagonal Divina Proportione and deliberately used its spiral to design this painting. Moreover, amongst his contemporaries, he wasn't the only painter to do so.. nor was he the only painter to use the spiral in this context. That being said, of all the golden spirals I have found, this one (inset right) is quite possibly my favorite. Really, what's not to love? Caravaggio almost challenges us to contemplate the mechanics of his design.

Once again, we merely have to look at Cupid's physically impossible posture; it is only through the spiral that his stance is made clear. He has become the golden triangle and its spiral... poised precariously on an area no larger than a dime. And, Caravaggio has neglected no detail: even the fret-board of the lute in the background aligns with Cupid's triangle.

As might be expected, much has been made of the eroticism in this image, but, with this, I can't quite agree. Judging by Cupid's expression - as he bends his head down and grins at us through his triangle - Caravaggio may have been celebrating the joy and playfulness love brings to human lives... and/or possibly his own love for the boy who was his model for Cupid - the diminutive, child-like form of Eros - a boy named Cecci with whom Caravaggio lived. As Caravaggio is generally considered bisexual, they may have been lovers... but they may have, instead, shared a different sort of love. As it so happened, Caravaggio was left an orphan at age 6 when his entire family was lost to the Black Death and, let's face it, an orphan of age 6 has to grow up painfully fast. Maybe Caravaggio, remembering his own past, felt protective of a boy like Cecci.

Cecci, on the other hand, as audacious, bodacious and jovial as he may be, has a certain gleam in his eye. Possibly it represents the Catch-22 of any variety of love. Can we ever fully trust another person? On the other hand, Cupid was known to be a trickster, and Cecci may have been merely modeling "in character."

In any case, utilizing Cupid/Eros, son of Venus, is a classical way to feature a GTS and this was not Caravaggio's last nod to the classical usage of the pentagonal Divina Proportione. Behold the spiral of Narcissus...